I'm so depressed.

DBSK,
u make me happy,
u make me sad,
u make me depressed,
u make me hyper,
u make me fall in love with Kpop,
u make me forget bout my problems,
u make me what summore??

well the thing is,
just wanna say that i hope @Charites_Dream will be able to bring JYJ to Malaysia.
i hope we MALAYSIAN CASSIES will be able to hit the target 10 000 ATTENDING for the event on FB.here's the link: http://www.facebook.com/event.php?eid=123508711054683
haha i know that nobody reads my blog,i just love to write and meluahkan my perasaan.

its not that i don't want to go during their showcase last year
but i just CAN'T.
the showcase was on the 17th of October 2010 (Sunday)
and i got Test 3 MGT 300 Information Technology in Business on the 15th of October 2010 (Friday) night at 8.30PM-10PM.
and also Speaking Test Malaysia University English Test *MUET* on the 18th of October 2010 (Monday) morning at 11AM.

HOW CAN I GO PLEASE TELL ME AT THAT TIME??
plus i'm studying in UNIVERSITI TEKNOLOGI MARA, PERLIS

the far far awayyy PERLIS.

how the hell am i going to go there??

so jaeballl please CHARITES DREAM bring JYJ to Malaysia this year and please let me be able to go this time..

i missed them 2 times already and i hope i won't miss them again.

and MALAYSIAN CASSIOPEIAS lets do this okehh.

ADAM replied my status!

Adam,my number 1 Malaysian singer replied on my status! ;)

i was so excited yesterday *now only i got time to blog bout it* hehe

i told like everyone thats close to me in class.

but while i was excitedly talking,the lecturer starts to ask the question and my story terus tergantung.

haha ape nak buat,nvm i just love Adam

this was my status:

and then suddenly his name was in the notification

i was excited and my heart beats like crazy~

hehe this is what he commented and all his replies..

and also my replies and my friends' too ;)

me and my frens talk more and suddenly Adam said..

and that's his last comment on my status..hehe

he really made my day and i felt really excited

can u imagine,after about 6 years of supporting him,

he replied my status!

he's actually jealous with Kpop,

that's normal for a local artiste right?

wtv it is,i still love him.btw,this was his default when he commented..

oke,just wanna blog bout this.

Adam,cant wait for your album that'll be coming out soon~

MOHD AIZAM BIN MATSAMAN,i support u always..

♥♥♥~

before flyinggg ;)

this is where i wanna write bout our trip to UK~

so we were excited because going to Concorde KLIA with Mak Su and fmly

yey!unofficial trip together since they will "escort" us

hehe i cant really remember happen on this day tho ;)

i wrote lotsa before but it disappeareddd

so we arrived Concorde at about noon i think

oh yeah,before that we went to Mak Long's house to visit Pah before flying

we had lunch there

then we went straight to Concorde

we arrived KL at noon,arrived Concorde lewat sikit

after lunch and pray jamak qasar Zuhur and Asar

that evening Nabilah my best cuzin came to the hotel~

she wanna come see us before we fly the next day..

she cant join the next day bcuz she has class the next day

we had dinner that nyte outside near Concorde..sodappp!!

*dahla tgh lapar gila nehh,teringat mknan trus lapar lapar bertambah lapar*

after that we go back to the hotel and i slept early.

i was so sleepy because the nyte before i was bz watching Why Why Love until ep 19.

i slept at 5 or something like that.heh ;)

the next day,i woke up at i cant remember what time..hehe

we went to KLIA by the shuttle bus

went we arrived there,Mak Adik and Uncle Ajit is already there

Uncle Ajit helped us with the luggages *which are huge and quite heavy esp Ibrahim's*

checked in the bags,we went to hv bfast at mcD <

but sgt sedap okehh ;)

after that Tok naek wheelchair

ktorg jalan kaki jelah kan

we byebye and saw Mak Su,Pak Su,Nadiah and Iqbal.they were waving at us

then do the passport thing blah3 and we got into the plane.. MH004

oh yeah,before that we were searching for Tok

then the worker there said that dia dah masuk dalam.

hehe so that's in KLIA..

i'll blog more about in flight and the trip itself soon~

ohh hai my blog! ;p

haha LOL feels like writing,

missing blogging..

hee~

well wanna say something.

i think i like u.

mr A lah oke..haha

for real.

well i used to like MONEY xiansheng and encik TIKUS

i was sooo obsessed of them.and felt excited everytime i bumped into them

MONEY was that chinese boy that i like since form 1 in science tuition cls

while TIKUS was that boy *or should i say guy* that i like since part 2 dinner..

this mr A that i like,

i saw him when i was in part 1.

1st class.the first guy that attracted my attention when i was in part 1.

the 1st guy in cls that i saw when i was in part 1.

when i liked TIKUS since part 2,i didnt think that i like that mr A anymore

yeah i was so hella obsessed with encik TIKUS that i forgot about mr A.

then some things happened this sem,

and i think i like him again.i actually never forget about encik TIKUS,

still like him like i used to but maybe just like.

when MONEY xiansheng and encik TIKUS were with gurls,

i never had the feeling of jealousy,even a bit.

but in the case of encik TIKUS,got la i felt jealous

it happened this sem when he talked to one of my close frens

yeah at that time i was super hella jealous! ='(

i did cry a bit but heyy

i hv never talk to him,nak sedih ape kan?

so i recoverla after that kan

mr A,something on fb that made me jealous

idk,i think i never felt jealous before but now

haih wtvlah.what i know is that i want to study

and if i want a boyfriend,i want that boyfriend to be my husband later

kalau setakat boyfriend for fun aje watpe kan?

fikir masa depan la.

jd sy nak 1 bf dan 1 suami shj hingga ke akhir ayat.

dan mereka adalah org yg sama.

dan plg best klau dpt bf yg fanboy dan bley guide jugaaa ;)

sy rasa mr A xbaca kot blog sy ni.haha

berani sungguh diriku ini bercerita pasal benda ini di blog

=) mr A,sy suka anda!ble anda senyap,sy rasa mcm pelik hari tersebut

dan sy rasa rindu plakk.hoho ntahla,xpnah rasa cmni kott,terasa mcm geli pun ada tulis cmni..

hehe

Another sweet dream that I have!

I dont want to forget this beautiful dream that I have..

last nyte,i found out that JYJ Album Showcase Tour 2010 in Malaysia will be on Sunday.

17 of October.i can't go definitely!

why?because i got stupid Speaking test MUeT on that damn Monday.

it'll be at 11am.

if the damn showcase is on Sunday,i'm gonna be damn super tired on that Monday during test

of cos,i dont want to lose my future.JYJ is not my future,they're my current interest.

RIGHT?? *this is to make my heart feel better*

oke wtv,so i wanted to sleep with YUNHO's poster.

unfortunately,i forgot and just go to sleep.HAHA

*this is the picture of the poster/pin up

then i woke up for Subuh.

i search for and then found my pin up of YUNHO in Goong's prince outfit

so i put his pin up beside me and then went to sleep back

and guess what my sweet dream was?

there were my lovely JONGHYUN,Onew and Minho!

wanna know how my dream goes?let's ka yorobun! ;)

i cant really remember the sequence so myb a lil bit jumbled up

it was at college/hostel room but more beautiful,modern,big and smart looking

hehe suddenly Lady Boss (a gurl in cls that everyone dislikes) was saying something and she pulled all my clothes from the locker and she was in rage.

what the heck?

so the RS (Residence Staff-person who's in charge of the college residents) for my college (but that person was not Kapten Amri,the real RS here) called me outside because my room was messy

while i go outside,my frens clear up and arrange back my stuff as usual..they were Lynn unnie and 2 other frens that i cant remember.or i donno actually in real life

then suddenly me and my frens were doing variety shows.

we hv to go to a supermarket and buy stuff to cook

so my job is to find meat.

every group could not find the section that sells meat

so i asked the worker there and she told me where to go

when i found it Minho was also otw

We both took plastic at the same time but he let me take first

aww my brother in law (my younger sis loves him) is so sweet.haha

but then i let him took the meat first,he took only one

my group needs a lot of meat so i took more

after Minho gone,Jonghyun came and wandered around

he was just walking and looking at me

i don't know la why the hell did he do that

but my heart was beatinggg like crazyyyyy

because i know that he's around

Then suddenly our group when to a hotel

the place is really nice but the beds are like hospital beds

but very comfy tho.like private hospitals.

$$expensive$$

in a big room,there were a lot of beds for us the participants of the variety show

and there was the MC there and guess who?

of cos,none other than Onew!

our dubu leader =)

the beds were arrange for 2 ppl

2 beds side by side,very near

the bed was kinda big (well the size of private hospital's bed)

and there's like a place for u to sit

i was seating there,waiting to see who my partner will be

but what's weird,it'll be male and female

Onew was funny,he sat and lie on the bed that was empty

and had fun.hehe so cute!

while waiting for my partner,

suddenly SHINee (4 ppl bcuz Onew already there) came into the room

JONGHYUN came near my bed and look at the number

it was G-11 *yeah i remember clearly because that dream was few hours back*

he was almost sitting down,preparing to relax there

at that time,my heart was beatingg like crazyyy again!

when my heart beating fast in dreams,it beats fast in reality too because i can really feel it

*i truthfully love him ryte?don't u agree?*

then suddenly Onew said,

"SHINee's room are at business class,not here"

then Onew smiled..

so Jonghyun and the other SHINee boys went out of the room

so i guess Jonghyun's bed number is the same with me but its at Business Class (more exclusive)

not same with us.

i guess this is the effect of reading articles about SME's private jet.well basically about the idols seating at economy cls and only few idols at the business class.

it was a comment somewhere that i read,didn't really remember (this one is not a dream,i really read before going to bed that nyte/morning.i slept at about 4am)

well,that was my dream!when i woke up there's this video on my twitter timeline..

OMG i'm loving this!then there's this another video,he's very protective,
makes me love him more than ever..

Kpop Kpop Kpop all the way in my dreams!

Oke first things first,

reason why i write this is to remember this dream

another first thing,JYJ IS COMING TO TOWNNNNN~~

oke myb not DBSK but for now,JYJ is enuff for us Cassies

and we Cassies hv to support all their unit and individual activities ryte?

that's what they want for now =)

at least,they haven't disappeared before our very eyes..

I was on9ing twitter and fb and suddenly there's a tweet by redstar.

and she said something bout big news

and then she said a lot about cassies and dbsk

so i waited patiently as it sounds like the big news will be about DBSK

then suddenlly,BAM!!

yeah i open redstar's fb and there's this:

JYJ FAN MEETING TOUR (Planning)

OMG can u imagine how i felt at that time?

i was crying!and i was so hapyyyyy

then i went upstairs and woke my sis up to tell her that

but i guess she was mamai and didnt even sedar what i said to her

haha

so i just went to bed

then the DREAM;

i went to a tuition or something like that

and there's 2 girls ,the watak jahat in the drama ASMARA (Shahz Jaszle the hero)

also in my dreams.one of the girls is Vince's sister

they were mean to in my dreams

saying bad stuff.hehe

So,i went to the tuition,

suddenly with Nazurah,my younger sis

we knew that JYJ studied there too but we never get to meet them

so while we were walking up the stairs,

we look at classes and we saw on the whiteboard

Bolero~~ and some lyrics

me and Nazurah screamed like crazyy in the dream!

the 1st person i saw was Haru

u know the heroin from the drama SNN

*she's the one with shorter hair,in the middle there.

i salam with her and she said thank you and smiled too

then i saw Jaejoong but then i saw Yunho was talking

so i aimed for Yunho first instead of Jaejoong the nearest to me

(why is there Yunho in JYJ?haha weird dream)

then when i salam Yunho,his hand was cacat?

but he still has a handsome face and the other hand was oke =)

then i want to salam Daesung (i thot JYJ but now has Big Bang and before there's Haru?)

before i saw Yunho,i saw a guy cannot salam Jaejoong

so i thot,why i cant salam Daesung?

i mean,i'm not a guy,i'm gurl ryte

then Taeyang smile cutely with his small eyes

then i was just oke with it was going to get out from their cls

so i was arranging my stuff and suddenly there's background music in my dream

and Daesung come to me from behind

he angkat/dukung/carry me from behind

and he spin me around

oh my god,why do i dream this of Daesung?

so shweetttttt ;)

then my dream just end like that

cool kan?haha

when i woke up,my sister was playing the album O-Jung Ban Hap version C

=)

Selamat Hari Raya everyone!1 more day left to puasa then rayaaaaa

KIM JONGHYUN in my dreams!

So i hv to write this.AGAIN!
omg i feel so stupid when it comes to blog
i didn't save the one that i wrote just now
i feel like i'm so damn stupid!
Oke,the reason why i wrote this is because i want me myself to remember this WONDERFULLEST DREAM ever!
seriously~~

I went to senamrobik with Wanie,her roomate Kak Tira and Mas
then geng Wyda too were there
the star 5 - Wyda,Erna,Kak Fara,G-ah and Mira
whenever wherever together 5 forever
haha yeah
the senamrobik was so cool and i njoyed it very much!
after that(setelah pushing dan bau busuk org2 berebut2 for stiker kolej.hahaha),
i went to mushroom and then to the dining with Mas
i ate rice with lauk ikan kayu masak kari and kcg pjg cmpur udang masak kari gak
yeah eating rice after exercising.
good lah sgt kan ;)

After that i went back to my room I228
i on9 for a bit,playing Cafeworld and Baking Life
yeah i'm so addicted to Cafeworld!
Baking Life,sket2 bleylah..
just started.hehe =)

So yeah,after exercising i feel sleepy la ryte
because tired kan
so i went to sleep on my top bed *my fate was with JONGHYUN*
hahaha because his bed is top bed too at his dorm
our fate together was written since 28th June 2008 when i got my key at the gate of UiTM Arau
hahaha nonsense much?
nope,FATE ;)
oke2,then i had the wonderful dream..
So the dream goes like this..
jengjengjeng..
haha there's the title of the blog ;)

There was a fanmeeting of SHINee and ze:a in Malaysia and i went of cos
for SHINee not ze:a of cos! =)
they were performing together on stage
idk la what the song was that
haha then they were like games for the fans
fans were divided into group of numbers
like number 1-100 in a room,101-200 in another room (wah 100 in a room?walaweh!haha sesak nafas kot)
my number was 100 and i hv to go to this one room
which has wooden house and kinda spooky there
actually the room is kinda big so not so sempitlah sbnarnyekan.. ;)
there were like ghost and stuff on our legs moving
i was kinda scared that time
then it was time for us to go out of the room (wait,is that even a game?hahaha)
and go back to the hall
this time SHINee performed on stage!
and i was focusing on them,performing
idk la what song,don't really hear in the dreams

Then,here comes the most important part of the dream..
;)
i was sitting on a comfy chair inside like a pondok or something
i was watching and enjoying their performance
(fanmeeting sitting in a pondok?yup,its a dream alright.haha)
and suddenly!jengjengjeng~~
haha my KIM JONGHYUN came to me and pulled my hand!
OMG his hands were so soft and i felt really real!
he took me on stage and gv me a present in front of all the ppl there!
he gv me a red box with LOVE patterns and has the phrase MISSING YOU
and when he opened the box for me (tied in red ribbon.hee~),
there's the sound of his voice saying MISSING YOU!
can this dream get any better??!!
oh myy god!i fo sho want it to be real!
i hope they for real will come here and i'll be able to go..



So,a note to GDE (Geneses Dream Entertainment - the one that successfully brought U-Kiss to Malaysia)
please jaebal please bring SHINee to Malaysia next year in 2011!
Kpop fans are running out of money ryte now and they're SHINee for god sake!
i want to meet them so much!
just as much as i want to meet DBSK..
i'm thankful that i didn't miss U-KISS and so now,
i don't want to meet my biggest bias after DBSK which is this SHINee..
i love them so much!
KIM JONGHYUN!saranghaeyo~~
and of cos SHINee <33333
=)